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From childhood to the present day, I have always faced one thought: others will always have it better than me. My reflections in such moments were filled with demoralization and similar feelings. What can I say about art and the results of this activity.

Of course, at a certain point, the following happened: I stopped comparing myself to others for a long time, lived in a vacuum, and didn't really contact other people.

What turned out in the end? My results are not as bad as I thought... (But there is a sneaking suspicion that in reality, people around me have become worse.)

I have long come to terms with this... I understand that if someone joins me, their results will be better than mine... It seems like I don't care, but it's somehow annoying that I put in more effort and get nothing...

The only way to get rid of this is either to see how someone else did it (and if it suits you, then use it), and if not, just forget it and that's it..."

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A month ago was Eurovision. Since I live in Russia, the contest was already late for me, though I still watched it. At that moment, I was half-asleep. I wasn’t even looking at my phone screen where the stream was playing—I was just listening.

That’s when Luxembourg was performing, and in my trance-like state, the song hit differently. A flood of memories washed over me—it felt like I wasn’t even listening to music anymore, but was inside a memory, with the Eurovision track playing in the background. But the most interesting thing is, these thoughts lead me to a rather strange idea about childhood memories. Outside observers can’t possibly know which moment from a person’s childhood will end up being something that lingers with them forever. You play some random music, and then that music gets embedded in another person’s subconscious…

Hmm…

So, in a way, you could try to activate your subconscious and listen to some pop music in a half-asleep state—preferably while falling asleep, not waking up. Then the music might feel completely different.

I love music and anime, of course I love anime soundtracks, although I know only one music artist, who makes it. He is Kevin Penkin. Maybe you know his works, for example, soundtracks for “Spice and Wolf” or soundtracks from anime shield hero. So, he mainly makes classical music. I listened to some albums and also I have one vinyl release (shield hero). I describe it as very admirable and fancy, especially if you know the story of anime which tracks what you hear. Irresistible sound surrounding you, you start wanting to make something new. However, it's better to listen if you know the plot of the anime, because you would be empathetic. Without it, it’s just a nice classical music. In my opinion, this situation is familiar with my last small article (I wrote about listening to music with vibes). I think this artist could be confirmation of my words.

I’m bored with my life and therefore I sometimes check reddit.Recently I found interesting artist for me, he isSYQL/// I opened his works by Mauve/// Also this track was uploaded on YT with video. It’s like as walking/// I’d rather say that it’s almost original way So, video 9 minutes long and I could watch full it,well… this is my achivments///I listened to only one track. Of course, it’s notsuitable for write about him.

From childhood to the present day, I have always faced one thought: others will always have it better than me. My reflections in such moments were filled with demoralization and similar feelings. What can I say about art and the results of this activity.

Of course, at a certain point, the following happened: I stopped comparing myself to others for a long time, lived in a vacuum, and didn't really contact other people.

What turned out in the end? My results are not as bad as I thought... (But there is a sneaking suspicion that in reality, people around me have become worse.)

I have long come to terms with this... I understand that if someone joins me, their results will be better than mine... It seems like I don't care, but it's somehow annoying that I put in more effort and get nothing...

The only way to get rid of this is either to see how someone else did it (and if it suits you, then use it), and if not, just forget it and that's it..."

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Summary:

1)Opening + For what it

2)Reasons

3)My experience

4)The best way

5)Ordinary ways

6)The end

Opening

Every day people don't get why all this is happening. I have exactly the same problems. However, I found a way to partially avoid these feelings. These are my ideas and one way that I don’t recommend. 

Well, give a chance to make your life easier (or even end it).

Reasons

1. You are good
   

2. You are a bastard 

3. You are in the same place

4. Your work are creativity (or your big hobby)

5. You are trying to get how this world exists

6. You often think about infinity (no visa infinity)

7. You understand that playing on the computer is not possible for infinity (death)
   

You may just be stupid///

You've been in one place for too long, the same thing every day, you catch yourself every day at the same moment, and you realize that you've lost one day…
You decided to do something creative and realized how talentless you are///
You've been thinking so deeply and no longer see the meaning of life, since you're just a set of organic substances
Well, the heat death of the universe, and all that...
Oh, wait, I can't play GTA 5 forever:(

My experience

Something about: where I get my ideas from
I was just actively trying to escape from the state of suicide/happiness, and when some of the life circumstances passed - I got why all this arose.
So, how could I possibly avoid this state?

The main problem is severe stress and the desire to be perfect.

The best way (no)

We must note that we can always finish the game...

“It's quite easy, close your eyes... run up and jump out the window.”

hm, I don't really recommend it, because you won't be able to do anything.

Ordinary ways

And now a way for which you maybe liked, but you will be discussed - soft drugs

Okay, here is another way, finally go to a psychologist, and not read some strange texts on the Internet///

The end

Remember - you are nothing, so enjoy the suffering)...

©A.I.E.L.

wrote by A. Mironenko